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In memory of William (Bill ) F. Bachmann, and in lieu of flowers, Bill wishes to give back to local children, their growing minds, and to the future of his community. The children thank you for your contribution.
Cancer is a horrible, horrible disease. I hope that soon a cure is found so that all these people who get cancer in the future won’t have to go thru this ordeal. The cancer has eaten away at my strength, my muscles, my weight, my endurance, my energy and even my ability to eat any food at all. But I have not let it destroy my spirit!
Please don’t feel badly for me. Even though this cancer has taken several of my “senior years” away from me, I still feel tremendously blessed with the full life I have lived. All of my life — even as far back as high school — I have tried to motivate & inspire people to live fully and have a positive outlook each day. That is the only way I have known how to live. In this final cancer fight, perhaps I have also shown how to stay positive in really tough times and to die honorably & with dignity.
When I finished a successful collegiate sports career, I figured my future would be more sports and then perhaps become a coach. But after college, I first had to stay in grad school & teach to stay out of the Vietnam military draft. So I did that for several years and degrees, while at the same time building my hobby of photography into a small business. I had absolutely no idea that FATE (and hard work) would take over and give me a career that I absolutely loved every day in commercial photography. There was no one “big break”, but I worked hard and completed one assignment, to be given another and another. And it grew beyond my wildest expectations. I had terrific clients that believed in my work and stayed with me over the years sending me everywhere on our planet, over & over again.
So while you may be sad at my passing, please rest assured that I lived a much bigger life than as a teen — from definitely middle class roots — in Pittsburgh would ever even DREAM of living. I have had 45 years of having assignments that have sent me to over 200 countries, I’ve written 15 books, worked with five US Presidents, shot over 1500 magazine covers, photographed so many celebrities, shot hundreds of major ad campaigns, appeared on television shows worldwide, and HONESTLY have lived a life of joy for all of those 45 years doing what I loved!. MY stock photography business, thru both hard work & determination, became one of the biggest in the world, which allowed me to only shoot for clients that I wanted to shoot and go places that I desired. I can never remember one day in my career when I said anything but I am truly blessed and I can’t believe they pay me for this!
So, yes, I am dying a few years before I should, but I can really say that I have lived a full and BIG life. So I still feel blessed. I started my Bachmann Tour Overdrive travel group and we together explored 25 trips to all seven continents—although I got sick and could not direct the last three, which truly broke my heart. But that small group of good friends is the BEST thing I have done in my career. I want them to continue to travel and stay friends. That would make me happy. I have had very big and lucrative assignments, many that became fairly famous (my Two-Year 72 country Kodak World Tour comes to mind), but my BTO groups ranks first in my heart and mind. I have paid for website up for 10 more years, so stop in to look at BTO videos or something to bring you smiles. www.billbachmann.com
In the future, when you think of me, think of my smile and not with sadness. I am on to the next adventure, hopefully in Heaven to see my Mom & Dad and all those I loved. Life can change so quickly for you (look how quickly my life changed when I returned from Asia to find out I had cancer!) and I hope that you will live your life positively daily. If you have issues with friends, call and make up — life is TOO short to carry grudges or hurt.
I close this with a saying that I have put at the bottom of my crazy Christmas card newsletter for the last 30 some years. “Care Deeply… Think Kindly… Act Gently… Pray Daily …. And be at Peace with the Earth!”
Home last night was so much better than it ever has been. I had three procedures where I had to go “under” in two days back in hospital. Not fun, but needed.
So I came home last night and slept from 10:30 pm until 10:30 am — 12 hours! And I just took another 3 hour nap. I was worn out I do believe.
I am changing my entire eating pattern of life. I had a divorce this afternoon with “Little Debbie” — cleaned out my refrig of those delicious little devils, Klondikes in the freezer, yogurt with fruit on bottom (I thought they were healthy!), cereals with any sugar, etc etc. Waste can looked funny! Sugar feeds the “Fire” of cancer, so no more for me. And no more sugar substitutes — they may be worse. I am trying to do this right!
I attach a photo of my living room (taken in winter as there is no fireplace going now). I love being here with my world photos on the wall, my music, Connie & Byron here to help me. So much better than a hospital room.
Please continue to not call and just get info from this blog. I am resting more than I’m not. Resting for the Chemo fight ahead. And I am planning to win….. If you know me, my middle initials are P.A. for Positive Attitude!
I send hugs to all of you for a great July 4th. The USA is scared right now for any large crowds, so that may well put dampers on many activities in our near futures. I plan on going over to Denise Smith’s house and watch fireworks from her yard. I hope I have the energy for that!
Happy Fourth to all of you. Again, share this blog with anyone that is going thru any illness where they need a positive attitude. My goal in life has always to inspire people to do their best, to stay positive, etc.
Haven’t written for three days, as it has turned so very busy here. Unbelievable how much to do and decide.
First, I would love to thank so very, very many of my dear friends and family for both there loving emails and for respecting my wishes about not calling. There are not enough hours in the day to do all that I have to do, so I just can’t talk on the phone with people going over & over details. Please make this blog your (hopefully) loving & positive place to find the latest news.
The last two days have been a blur of calls for appointments, procedures, preps, discussions of plans, etc etc. No time to really relax and I need to do that soon! I need to have the strength for what is ahead and I plan on going at this dreaded disease in traditional & alternative nutrition methods. Getting the best of both organized! I have already changed my eating by more than 180 degrees — I do not even recognize my new diet & food choices! I thank my old friend doctor Paul Beals, and my dearest friend Terre Arrigoni (who just went thru cancer), for their guidance and determination to change this traveling guy whose only decision each night was “Where will I eat” whether at home or somewhere on the planet. Man I had it easy!
Beware of the new Bill — yes, I may even be cooking some healthy food myself! OK, my close friends, take the time to pick yourself off the floor!
All day yesterday, my best friend (really like my sister) Connie and her husband Bryon came into town to stay at my home for a long time. We spent so much of the day going over food to have, choices, No-Nos, etc. Oh no, never another “Little Debbie” sweet. 🙁
And a wonderful, wonderful thing happened. Jordan, my youngest stepson, flew down from Atlanta for the day to spend with me. So sweet and so needed! He filled my heart with joy! Golly, that felt terrific!
As a team we set a lot of goals and procedures together. Terre taught us so much about what we eat and put into our bodies. It was a rushed, but so productive day
Last night I checked back into the hospital to redo a few tests this morning. They went well, I think, and I’ll stay until tomorrow to put in port for Chemo and to do a colonoscopy. Oh, the fun things we do now!
I still send warm positive vibes to all of those that read this and care for me. I can not say how much it means to me knowing your caring & prayers are sent my way. I can not have too many positive thoughts and prayers helping me! Keep them coming my dear people! I think many of you have always seen my outer strengths and assumed I can do anything. Well, humbly, I am learning much more I need to work on now with inner strength and will power. I always took that for granted, and it is an experience that I am learning how to apply internal strength to my body & life.
A restless sleep all night. So much on my mind, so many paths, procedures etc ahead. Not only do I want to beat this cancer, but I want to have my life back where it is helping & inspiring others. In the last 15 years of my life, I have managed to slide away from making money on assignments and I have spent more time writing books, preparing slide show lectures and guiding my small but wonderful Bachmann Tour Overdrive travel group witness with me the wonders and joys of our beautiful planet. I want that back!
Still in the hospital as I write this. The system seems to have slowed as I wait for doctors and test results. I guess the weekend has slowed results, but I sure am anxious to hear the results to see if the cancer is anywhere else and to give it a name. You need to know your enemy to fight it!
Finally at 9 pm, I write this from home. They let me go home to really rest (who gets rest in a hospital?) even though I have no answers to the tests. I will get a port for the chemo in three days, I believe.
On the way driving home, thru all the construction zones of the interstate 4. Cars are whipping around me driving in the center lane, passing on right & left, cutting in front and going 20 + miles past the speed zone. Very unsafe — to get to their home or to a restaurant 1 ½ minutes faster. After you start to face cancer or another major life problem, you want to tell them to stop their rush that could kill someone and it is just not that important in the scheme of things.
Today is a blur of doctors, discussions on plans, X-rays to see if the cancer has spread to my chest, etc. Do not have results back yet, but one doctor said that the X-ray looked good. I am still waiting to hear the results of the biopsy to identify the type of cancer.
I had told several of my friends about the hospital stay and they showed up with card, balloons, etc. And we laughed for several hours. But I honestly also can say, I was exhausted by the hours we talked. I have very little energy now and I have so much reading, resting & relaxing to do. I also must save my energy for healing! A lady from the hospital said to me: “You have to protect your energy”. And I realize that is true. I can’t have tons of company and hundreds of calling messages.
I love my friends and I know they all want to call and comfort me, but I must turn my phone off or I will be giving “replays” all day and wearing myself out. So, seriously, please use this blog as your update. You can email your thoughts to my email (at top of blog) and I will read all of them when I can. There will be times I will reach out to many of you for companionship, getting together and hugging, but let me get into this program and see what I am capable of doing. The chemo will wear me out I am sure, so I will need to recoup from that.
My best friend in the world, Connie Beals, and her husband Bryon, are coming down on Wednesday to stay at my house for several months. Connie’s ex-husband, Dr Paul Beals, also is an alternative doctor so we will be going at this cancer from two levels — traditional and alternative. Bryon will be looking for a job here in Florida (they have wanted to move to Florida for years) so he will be job hunting.
Connie will be with me everyday, taking me to hospital visits, holding my hand when the chemo gets you down, and helping with all the alternative therapy that I want to start. One other dear friend, Terre Arrigoni, who just had cancer and is beating it with all the nutrition that I will need. (she was in the bed with me today on this fun photo!). I thank God for all four of these people to be my support system — God bless you Connie, Paul, Bryon & Terre.
So I sleep very restlessly tonight thinking of all that is ahead .
What do I need the most?? All of your sincere prayers! I want to be out there guiding trips, shooting travel, writing books and doing what small things I can do in my life to inspire others. Please understand I need your prayers so much and your love. And please understand that I can not write or call others now and talk all day. But I will feel your love & support and it will make my shoulders wider and my smile more radiant.
There is one phrase that can bring the strongest man to his knees. One phrase that can make everyone on the planet feel so afraid immediately when it is directed to him in conversation. One phrase that absolutely rocks your world and makes everything else immediately less important.
“You have cancer.” Three simple words. I heard them today at 11:00 am from a team of doctors when I went in for tests thinking something was simply out of whack with my intestines. And I will never again be the same. My goals, dreams, challenges, lifestyle and faith will never be the same again.
All of us really have no idea how WE would react to hearing that discussion. I have often wondered if I would be strong, if I would just start crying, if I would be in denial, if I would be ready to fight. But when I heard the words today, I would have to simply describe myself as totally numb, no feeling, almost in total shock. It was as if I was above the discussion on the ceiling watching doctors talk about a person below around a table.
I had been traveled around the Southern USA for several weeks with no energy, diarrhea that was almost white, urine that was Home Depot Orange. And I was losing a lot of weight in a short time. I knew it was something blocking my liver functions…. I figured it was a Gall Stone wedged in the bile duct or something. So I cut the trip a week short and rushed home to get to doctors. They took blood tests and it confirmed extremely high emzyme numbers in my liver. AST, ALT, Bilirubin etc. all of a sudden became important elevated numbers to me.
So, I came into the hospital last night to stay and would have a CAT SCAN in the morning today that would identify what was blocking the bile. Simple enough, I thought: probably a gall stone that they can pluck away (even with surgery) and I can be off to Italy next week on a planned for so long BTO Photo Adventure I was leading with 20 terrific people. All the beautiful parts of Northern Italy to show them with cameras…. how exciting for all of us.
Everything was true indeed exactly as I stated — the only difference was WHAT was blocking this bile track would affect the rest of my life. Instead of just a little gall stone (or some stone), I have a mass of cancer on my pancreas. Welcome to Pancreatic Cancer, Mr Bill. And it will be something I will fight beginning today.
The reasons I am writing this blog are threefold. First, I want to have a way of communicating with my global friends, people that love me, family that loves me and let everyone know daily progress and insights. Secondly, I have to allow myself time to rest, make decisions, fight this disease and not be on the phone talking and telling details over & over. And, thirdly, I hope that perhaps this blog can be of help & perhaps encouragement to even people who do not know me so they can be inspired to fight this horrible disease. So feel free to share this blog with anyone that you know that may be helped in any way.
I promise there will be days with only a paragraph or two written…. Something like “I threw up today”, or hopefully, even more days of, “I saw a beautiful flower today in the garden that I never noticed before.” That is how we should all live anyway (as I have tried to do in my life as a photographer). We ALL, with cancer or totally healthy, need to notice the beauty, peace and joy of our world and not race by everything in our lives. We hear it always “Stop and smell the flowers”….. but far too many of us think we have UNLIMITED time on Earth to do that, and we are promised nothing, my dear friends! Believe me, staring cancer eyeball-to-eyeball now, I will search for the beauty & love in every day, in every way I can, in each small beautiful thing or gesture.