A restless sleep all night. So much on my mind, so many paths, procedures etc ahead. Not only do I want to beat this cancer, but I want to have my life back where it is helping & inspiring others. In the last 15 years of my life, I have managed to slide away from making money on assignments and I have spent more time writing books, preparing slide show lectures and guiding my small but wonderful Bachmann Tour Overdrive travel group witness with me the wonders and joys of our beautiful planet. I want that back!
Still in the hospital as I write this. The system seems to have slowed as I wait for doctors and test results. I guess the weekend has slowed results, but I sure am anxious to hear the results to see if the cancer is anywhere else and to give it a name. You need to know your enemy to fight it!
Finally at 9 pm, I write this from home. They let me go home to really rest (who gets rest in a hospital?) even though I have no answers to the tests. I will get a port for the chemo in three days, I believe.
On the way driving home, thru all the construction zones of the interstate 4. Cars are whipping around me driving in the center lane, passing on right & left, cutting in front and going 20 + miles past the speed zone. Very unsafe — to get to their home or to a restaurant 1 ½ minutes faster. After you start to face cancer or another major life problem, you want to tell them to stop their rush that could kill someone and it is just not that important in the scheme of things.